A Modern Woman's Perspective On The Kingdom of God on Earth

June 15, 2020

Humility, Forgiveness, and Unveiling Deception

     I apologize for the length of this post. But so much is being revealed and heaped upon our nation right now, and I would not do justice to the revelation by dividing it into two parts. So I hope you are able to see what I am trying to accomplish here. There are so many layers to what we see unfolding in our country today. I  have tried to show the different facets of the Lord's heart, as well as all the tactics of the Enemy to kill the destiny of this nation. And there are layers upon layers in both the natural and spiritual realms that pertain to these two agendas. We must begin to see the truth about the intentions of both Jesus and the devil!
     Where to begin? We know that Forgiveness is one of the largest factors in defeating Satan's agenda. Jesus includes it in the Lord's Prayer. Scripture tells us that we cannot expect to be forgiven if we don't forgive our fellow man. But we must also be willing to ask for forgiveness [in humility] in order to set our brother or sister free from Satan's lies that cause division and strife.
     Here is what we see happening in the natural realm: If we call ourselves Americans, there is a truth we need to understand. We are 155 years removed from the end of slavery in this country, but we are still paying the price of the seeds of evil planted four centuries ago when the first slaves arrived on our shores in 1619. Whether our families owned slaves or not, we are suffering from the generational iniquity in our DNA as citizens of the United States of America. We cannot exempt ourselves from that identity.
     And if we call ourselves Christians, we cannot ignore our Lord's command to humble ourselves and be a servant to all (John 13), and most importantly [in this hour] to reconcile with our brother if he has something against us (Matthew 5:23-24). So, we are called to not only forgive, but to ask for forgiveness from a humble spirit; reconciling with our brother who has been hurt by past and present injustices, even if we were not participants. And that word reconcile means to transform; to change thoroughly. It will go a long way in cleansing our land of all unrighteousness, as well as building bridges towards unity and loving each other the way our Creator loves us; all of us.
     My friend Molly understands this concept of humility and repentance. She and her husband are to become the proud Godparents to twin girls who will be born to her best friend, Evette's daughter. Molly and Evette are of different races, but the moment I met them, I only saw two beautiful spirits who love the Lord, and who just happen to be clothed in different skin colors for their time on this earth. The Lord has told Molly to humble herself before Gladys, the mother-to-be, and to wash her feet, just as Jesus washed the feet of the disciples. Molly believes the foot-washing is about the mutual service of friendship, a mutual sharing of gifts that in no way implies any sort of domination. The message is not so much that the master has become the slave, but that all are on the SAME LEVEL. In the foot-washing, Jesus challenges His disciples to do the same for each other, and to see that all are EQUAL FRIENDS in the Kingdom. No one is above or below another person.
     Molly then asks the question ... How different would our churches be if we modeled Christ in a ministry of humble service on Sundays -- or at critical moments when forgiveness is demanded? I ask, "What is more critical than what is happening in our nation this very moment in time?"
     She goes on to say, "I, as a white American, cannot begin to understand the tangible spiritual oppression that was made manifest by my race over the African American community in this nation. I can't pretend that I understand what it would be like to have walked this road of oppression generation after generation. But what I can do is take a stand to help make a difference now. I can stand in the gap and repent for the crimes committed against African Americans by the hands of generations of white men. I can humbly ask for forgiveness for those who have gone before me and got it all wrong. I can do my part to make way for the generations coming after me.
     We can't rewrite history. We can't hold onto the trauma of the past because if we do it will inevitably kill this nation. My prayer [in doing the prophetic act of foot-washing] is that it will represent a washing away of the old and allowing all the trauma to be cleansed by the Living Water of Jesus Christ... That it will represent a NEW birthing and a NEW walk in this nation... That it will erase the generations of iniquity and curses that have been placed on the African American population by the white men in America... That as Gladys carries these two beautiful gifts from the Lord, that they represent the womb of change. That as Aamani and Anaya enter this world they will experience a changed world -- a reconciled world -- never trying to rewrite the past, but as they grow and mature in the Lord, seeing the beautiful picture of redemption that only God can do in this land."
     And Molly plans on speaking directly to the spirits of these unborn baby girls, saying, "I now speak to Aamani and Anaya, and I say you carry change within your wombs that many will not understand. You carry keys to unlock the mysteries to continue to heal this land. You carry wisdom beyond your years and you carry hope divinely dispersed through you from the throne room of God. You both are being born during an unprecedented time in our nation's history and I would be lying if I said it doesn't scare me [to see] the trials and tribulations your generation will endure for the Kingdom of God. But you both are being born for such a time as this, and as your Godparents, Travis and I pray for wisdom beyond our comprehension as we come in alignment with His plans and purposes for you both. May he and I yield to the Father's blueprint for your lives and not our assumptions or selfish desires for what we think you should be. It is a blessing and honor and a privilege to be part of your stories written in Heaven before the foundations of the world. I pray now that God begins to breathe on the penned words of your lives in Heaven so that we can wage effective war on your destinies. God bless you both, and to God be the glory. Amen".

     This is the heart we must have if we are to begin true reconciliation in this nation. We must have a servant's heart and a humble heart; being willing to sacrifice our pride to recognize the pain in another human being. And we have to be willing to let the Lord heal each of us where we are, no matter what our race. Repentance and forgiveness must come first. But there also needs to be recognition of the spirits of Anti-Christ and Deception that are working against any kind of reconciliation. The kingdom of darkness benefits greatly if these two evil spirits are able to thwart the efforts of Christians and good people to heal and eradicate racism.
     There is a very insightful documentary on Netflix called 13th. It explores "the intersection of race, justice, and mass incarceration in the United States." It is titled after the Thirteenth Amendment to the US Constitution, adopted in 1865, which abolished slavery throughout the United States and ended involuntary servitude except as punishment for conviction of a crime. The film purports that this clause of the amendment has been used to advance an agenda against Black Americans by a White government system that sought to unjustly incarcerate mass numbers to keep the Black population from succeeding as equal citizens.
     And believe me there is ample evidence of the injustice done! Everything from DW Griffith's monumental film "Birth of A Nation" which stereotyped the African American as someone evil and to be feared, and justified the existence of the KKK ... to showing the horrors of lynchings that occurred in the South ... to how the War on Drugs was used to disproportionately criminalize Black Americans... to the private prison corporations that make millions of dollars off of incarcerated Black men. The film pulls back the curtain to let us see just how evil men can be towards each other. BUT, it doesn't pull the curtain back far enough!
     This film tears at our hearts -- and rightly so! It focuses our hearts and minds on the injustice and the pain that our fellow humans have endured. And if you are not a Black American and haven't experienced this, you need to see it! But we also need to go beyond the gut-wrenching emotion and pull the curtain all the way back. Because if they can keep us focused on the emotion, we won't go further in pursuing the whole truth.
    While the film exposes the injustice against the Black American population, when you have spiritual eyes to see, it becomes apparent that there has been a deep deception and a more demonic agenda. Here's some of what I saw when I separated the emotions of my soul from my spirit ... DW Griffith, who made the racist film "The Birth of a Nation" was a Freemason. So he pushed the KKK message and agenda in his film. By the way, the Ku Klux Clan was a Freemason organization. And as depicted in "The Birth of a Nation", burning the cross and lynchings (think Judas) are anti-Christ rituals. It is important that we understand that at its core, Freemasonry is anti-Christ in the rituals and oaths that they take to false Egyptian, Nordic, Hindu, and Islamic deities -- yes, even to Lucifer! And Freemasonry is a lower level branch of the New World Order (NWO), a conglomeration of powerful men who will be in league with the Beast system of Revelation 17. I know that's a lot to wrap your mind around, but study the Bible and then begin to look behind the subterfuge of powerful men and institutions in this nation and the world. Ask the Holy Spirit for revelation!
    All that being said, the film shows that God sent Martin Luther King as an agent of change [and I believe to thwart the plans of the NWO to subjugate and manipulate the Black population in order to keep the roots of division and discord alive in this nation]. But King was assassinated and LBJ (a Freemason) became the hero of those who believed his War on Poverty benefited Blacks in America, when in reality it just married them to the Welfare State and we began to see the Black family unit disintegrate. He was followed by Freemason President Nixon, who began a long line of Presidents whose platforms consisted of "law and order" policies and crackdowns on illegal drugs, which further marginalized the Black race. President Reagan was not a Freemason, but his War on Drugs criminalized the easy targets -- the Black addicts and drug pushers -- when his administration should have prosecuted the corrupt CIA which introduced and flooded the poor communities with crack cocaine. This became another form of slavery for Black Americans as they became victims of the anti-Christ spirit to enslave them to addiction and the false promise of wealth and power through drugs. Additionally, there is evidence that several directors of the CIA have been known Freemasons.
     All these nefarious activities gave rise to movements like the Black Panthers, Black Lives Matter, and Antifa-- all groups who seek to right the injustice done toward Black America but who fail to see what's "behind the curtain". Black politicians spoke loudly in the 13th documentary about injustice and prejudice and discrimination, which are all real on the surface. But each of these politicians are members of secret societies and the NWO (Freemasons and Eliezer Society, among others). They are double-minded in their efforts, and work in partnership with a media that is run by members who owe their allegiance to the NWO. They speak loudly against the corrupt Corrections Corporation of America (CCA), which is a company that owns and operates private prisons and detention centers and operates others on a concession basis. But Thurgood Marshall, Jr. (son of Thurgood Marshall, Sr., the first Black Supreme Court Justice) is a Board member of CCA and a 33rd degree Mason, just as his father was! These are Black men making money off incarcerating fellow Black men, and under the auspices of a secret society that promises wealth, position and power! It's hypocrisy at its most damaging!
     This is what breaks my heart! It is the spirit of Deception working with the NWO and the anti-Christ spirit to crush the spirits of men, while pitting one race against the other! So, I asked my wise husband, "How do we, as both Black and White average citizens of this country, fight back against the NWO system dominated by an evil satanic principality? It feels as if we have no power in this world!" We all need to have the heart of Molly, and on a one-to-one basis, repent and ask for forgiveness, but I don't know if we have enough time to reach everyone in the time we have left, or if our hearts will be received. The deception is so pervasive!
     Mark said, "That's why, when I asked the Lord for the Truth, He asked me, 'Do you really want to know (and see) it?' " Mark then said the Lord showed him it was an overwhelming presence coming upon the earth, and the Lord said it was a curse! Instantly, the verse in Luke 21:25-26 came to mind... And there will be signs in sun and moon and stars, and on the earth distress of nations in perplexity because of the roaring of the sea and the waves, people fainting with fear and with foreboding of what is coming on the world. This brought everything into focus as I completed a word study on "sea" and "wave". In context, the Biblical meaning of "sea" is the wild and restless conditions of nations; the false thinking and twisted logic. "Wave" means the arguments that come from the false thinking and twisted logic (the sea) and attack our belief in what's true.
     You can see this unfolding before our very eyes! Our nation is in a wild and restless condition, and there is so much perverted and twisted thinking by all parties involved. Average citizens don't know what to think or how to act. The anti-Christ spirit has corrupted the minds of the NWO, who is finding success in causing arguments (waves) between Black and White, Law Enforcement and Communities, Conservative and Liberal ideologies,  Politicians and Citizens. This deceptive, destructive, and evil spirit has infiltrated the ranks of every group mentioned and each plays a part in instigating the injustice we have seen over the last few weeks. Even those involved with this film -- which make no mistake, reveals a level of the lies and deception -- are part of the deception because they are not revealing the whole truth and have sold their souls to the very system they are exposing. But we have the mind of Christ and we must remain the humble servant, even as we battle in the spirit against the anti-Christ spirit!
     Only the Lord can permanently calm the seas and the waves. We are in the middle of a storm at sea, for sure, and all we see around us are waves crashing against the foundation of our nation and lives. We must see the big picture and understand what is happening behind the veil, but it is also  imperative that we humble ourselves in our intimate relations with our fellow human beings. I pray that our hearts remain tender and we clothe ourselves in humility, just as we strengthen our spirits to face what is coming upon the earth. We must never forget that we represent Heaven and the kings of the earth will soon forfeit their power and influence when the Son of Man comes in His great power and glory!

Isaiah 40:28-31    Have you not known? Have you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He does not faint or grow weary; His understanding is unsearchable. He gives power to the faint, and to him who has no might He increases strength. Even youths shall faint and be weary, and young men shall fall exhausted; but they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.



  1. "So, we are called to not only forgive, but to ask for forgiveness from a humble spirit; reconciling with our brother who has been hurt by past and present injustices, even if we were not participants."


    "The soul who sins shall die. The son shall not suffer for the iniquity of the father, nor the father suffer for the iniquity of the son. The righteousness of the righteous shall be upon himself, and the wickedness of the wicked shall be upon himself." (Ezekiel 18:20)

    My great grandparents were murdered by Nazis. My grandfather suffered and nearly died in the camps. But why would I hold a grudge against some random German person today? Why should some random German person apologize to me? It's completely absurd! I can certainly sympathize with the plight of other peoples, but I can only apologize for my own sins.

  2. Please read my words carefully ... I did not say you should "apologize" for sins you did not commit. But I did say " I can stand in the gap and repent for the crimes committed against African Americans by the hands of generations of white men. I can humbly ask for forgiveness for those who have gone before me and got it all wrong. I can do my part to make way for the generations coming after me." And that is part of my spiritual warfare to fight against the Anti-Christ spirit that is trying to divide and conquer us all.

    I do not believe that what I've said calls for me to apologize or accept responsibility for the actions of our ancestors, but rather to acknowledge the sins of the past and express my desire to bridge the gap that exists between my heart and another's. And if that action can help my brother's heart to heal and helps him to forgive, then I believe that is pleasing to God. If each side continues to defend their hurts and pride, the devil will be the winner and we will never learn to live with each other.

  3. Then I still do not understand. I hate any evil done to any individual, family, clan, tribe, or nation. But I did not do this evil. My family did not do this evil. Nor my clan. Nor my tribe. But rather my nation. (Well, one of my nations; I am only half-American by blood; only my maternal lineage traces back to the founders.) And have not many American representatives already apologized many times for slavery on behalf of the American nation? What does it even mean for you or I to ask for forgiveness on behalf of the American nation? I am not an official; I have no such authority! How can I speak for the American nation? It would be presumptuous for me to do so! So again, how can I do more than sympathize?

    1. I have authority as a representative of Christ on earth to speak to an individual's heart. If that person's heart is steeped in anger (whether I agree with the anger or not), I want to have the mind and heart of Christ to speak into that anger (that is being encouraged by the devil) and help them become an overcomer in Christ. If all you are able to do is sympathize, I bless you for that.

      “You have heard that it was said, ‘You shall love your neighbor (fellow man) and hate your enemy.’ But I say to you, love [that is, unselfishly seek the best or higher good for] your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, so that you may [show yourselves to] be the children of your Father who is in heaven; for He makes His sun rise on those who are evil and on those who are good, and makes the rain fall on the righteous [those who are morally upright] and the unrighteous [the unrepentant, those who oppose Him]. For if you love [only] those who love you, what reward do you have?" (Matthew 5:44-46)

      Believe me, I am not going to be able to reach an entire race, and I will not APOLOGIZE for sin I did not commit. I will not ACCEPT blame for something I did not do. But I can ACKNOWLEDGE sins were committed and ask them to forgive on behalf of my request. That's my choice. We each have to make our own decision, and we will just have to agree to disagree.

  4. It is one thing to speak with a person, to acknowledge that they have been hurt, and to ask them to forgive those who hurt them. That is always worthwhile! But it is another thing to claim that we have a calling, that is, a duty, to "ask for forgiveness ... even if we were not participants." Maybe it's just poor phrasing, but it is a bold statement! I understand the importance of pursuing and removing all evils from our midst, after all, a heifer was to be killed in the stead if the actual murderer could not be brought to justice. But once that was done, it was done. I will not claim to know if justice has been done, only YHWH knows that, but I do know that much blood was spilled to end slavery.

    1. Now, you're nitpicking over a word... I believe we are done with this conversation because you obviously are refusing to see my heart in this matter and just want to be right. I stand by my "bold" statement to forgive and ask for forgiveness ... whatever is required ... if my brother or sister in Christ is grieved or angered or struggling because of the iniquity of generational sin, then I will seek the will of the Lord in turning that anger to love. AGAIN, if by acknowledging their pain and hurt, it softens their heart, then that is better than continuing to walk in disharmony and dispute. If they choose not to accept my offer of reconciliation from my heart, then I must turn them over to the Lord. Everything I have said is within the context of one-on-one relationships -- I am not painting a broad brush across the entire society. So, AGAIN, we will have to agree to disagree and I wish you well, my fellow Christian, and bless your journey in this life!

      "Do nothing from rivalry or conceit, but in humility count others more significant than yourselves. Let each of you look not only to his own interests, but also to the interests of others." Philippians 2:3-4

      "And he said to all, “If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me." Luke 9:23

      "Above all, keep loving one another earnestly, since love covers a multitude of sins." 1 Peter 4:8

  5. I am not refusing to see your heart; I cannot see your heart. Nor can you see mine. More so the pity. For what it is worth, I don't "just want to be right"; I want to do right by Him. I'm not even sure we disagree. I don't want a broken relationship, whatever its cause, with any of my neighbors. And I am perfectly willing to do my part to fix that. So if you are willing to bear with me one more time, could you at least explain WHY you think we have a calling "even if we were not participants" and "whether our families owned slaves or not"? I can understand this as a generic calling given to all followers of Messiah, but I cannot fathom this as a specific duty for being "white" or "American". The latter sure feels like blame. And it just seems absurd in the case of American citizens, a matter of paper, rather than American nationals, a matter of blood. But if He has a reason for it to be so, I will certainly listen. I just don't see it. Perhaps "we cannot exempt ourselves from that identity", perhaps there is "iniquity in our DNA", even for immigrants, but He makes exemptions. Rahab. Lot. Those who come out of Babylon. Perhaps we do have a calling, but I doubt it has anything to do with our ancestors; perhaps it is just because we are here. And if you are not willing to bear with me any longer, no problem; I won't bother you again.

    1. It's very simple for me ... it has nothing to do with me being white. It has everything to do with me having the heart of Christ. And if I see a fellow human being in pain, I want to help them heal -- even if it means I have to humble myself and acknowledge the sins of the past that I did not personally commit. It doesn't change the fact that those sins happened and Satan has that person enslaved to hate and anger. It's hard to explain in simple words... like a combination of reconciliation with my brother or sister; turning the other cheek; and if I see someone in prison I am called to visit with them. People embittered by long-standing anger are in a spiritual prison. If I am willing to listen, acknowledge the basis for their anger, and offer an expression of regret, then perhaps I can counter Satan's lies.

      BUT, if they want to continue in their anger and hate, and not soften their heart towards my heart for Christ, then that is on them, and I will shake the dust off my feet and move on. Again, I am not making an across-the-board declaration of intent; it's all about a one-on-one relationship, which is also the heart of Christ. Hope this helps to further clarify my heart.

    2. TO ANONYMOUS: God uses people all the time so that His purposes can be accomplished.

      Here are a few examples from the Bible: God used Joseph to save his family from starvation by bringing them to Egypt (Genesis 50:20). Moses begged God not to destroy the Hebrews when they had worshipped the golden calf (Psalm 106:23).
      Esther stood in the gap with prayer and fasting for her people, saving them from Haman who wanted them destroyed (Esther 8).

      After God created the earth, He said, “It was very good” (Genesis 1:31). There was no divide between God and anyone on the earth; however, after Adam and Eve disobeyed, sin created a gap between God and humanity, cutting all future generations off from God’s best for their lives. Fortunately, God Himself stood in the gap for us by sending His Son, Jesus, in human form, to live as a man, die for our sins, and rise from the dead so we could be restored into a personal relationship with Him.

      Part of our responsibility as followers of Jesus is to pray for God’s intervention in the lives of others. The idea of “standing in the gap” comes from Ezekiel 22:30: “I looked for someone among them who would build up the wall and stand before me in the gap on behalf of the land so I would not have to destroy it, but I found no one.” Ezekiel 22:40

      Clearly, God’s heart is moved to act when people cry out on behalf of others. In fact, this verse indicates that God is searching and waiting for people to stand in the gap so He may respond mercifully.

      The word “intercessor” is commonly used by Christians to describe someone who acts as a go-between, pleading to God on behalf of those in dire circumstances. We read in Galatians 6:2 that we are to “carry each other's burdens: One way we do that is by lifting others’ concerns to God in prayer. When the circumstances or our brothers and sisters become overwhelming, we can be their voice, calling out to God for help.

      We are also called to stand in the gap for those who have not yet found salvation in Christ. The Apostle Paul implied that praying for the salvation of others should be at the top of our list: “First of all, then, I urge that supplications, prayers, intercessions, and thanksgivings be made for all people ... This is good, and it is pleasing in the sight of God our Savior, who desires all people to be saved and to come to the knowledge of the truth.” 1 Timothy 2:1; 3-4

      Anonymous, I believe in all of your responses the biggest and best question you must ask yourself is, “WHY ARE YOU SO AGAINST IT?” That is a heart issue that you will need to take to the Lord. I mean no offense in saying that; however the truth is you obviously have taken a personal offense to this and that can only be healed, and you set free from it, by ABBA. Blessings to you in healing and revelation.

  6. @AnonymousJune 21, 2020 at 10:59 AM

    You misunderstand.

    My first objection is with the claim that all the citizens of the United States of America have generational iniquity in their DNA. This claim is false. We are not inevitably tainted by the sins and iniquities of our ancestors. Consider Messiah. He was completely without sin. So either his entire ancestry was without sin or he was not tainted by the sins of his ancestry. Clearly it was the latter. YHWH knows who does and does not suffer from generational iniquity; Pam does not, and she ought not make this claim. I have been trying to prompt her into realizing this.

    My second (possible) objection is with the implication that BECAUSE we all have generational iniquity in our DNA, that we have a duty to erase this generational iniquity through good works, or even that we can. (Given that Pam has neither posted nor responded to my last comment, I do not know her actual position on this matter. I may be reading too much into this and I hope that I am.)

    I have nothing whatsoever against the work itself if it is done with the right heart. But I detest false accusations. So please, Pam, I am encouraging you to retract this claim. I would not want to be standing before Him when the DNA results come in, and I don't want that for you either!

  7. You clearly are reading WAY too much into what I have said, and are refusing to see my heart because you've made up your mind about where my heart is, and it doesn't mimic yours. You make a false statement in claiming I said "all the citizens of the US have generational iniquity in their DNA". As I have asked you in previous comments, please read my words carefully .... our nation carried the sins of slavery and racism for generations. That cannot be denied. And even though I personally don't carry that sin, as a CITIZEN of the US, I have to admit that it is part of our NATIONAL identity, and there is generational iniquity in that. I never said that I must admit to that sin. But I did say that if I see a fellow human being's pain because of that history of sin, and my heart leads me to acknowledge that pain, then I am willing to humble myself and listen to their heart and seek reconciliation. If you don't feel the same, then that is your decision. So, please quit trying to make my words say something I never intended. The reason I did not respond to your last comment, nor will I accept any more, is that your arguments (and that is what they are) have increasingly become personal and accusatory. You are showing your religious spirit by claiming that I said we "have a duty to erase this generational iniquity through good works, or even that we can." That is stretching the truth of my statements, and misrepresenting the heart and intent of my friend, Molly, who humbled herself to wash her friend Gladys's feet. This is my final comment to you. I have seen no attempt on your part to listen ... you only want to argue, so any future comments will be immediately deleted without consideration or reading. Like the second Anonymous, I pray for the healing of your offended heart. And I will have no problem standing before my Lord. He has seen my fruit.