A Modern Woman's Perspective On The Kingdom of God on Earth

June 5, 2017

He Makes Me Lie Down....

     I can no longer ignore the signs that I have to make some changes... and it is has been difficult to decide exactly where those changes need to be made.  The long and short of it is that my health has begun to suffer from the stress of trying to meet all the obligations I feel that I must do to be effective in my service to the Lord. Please... I am not complaining!  It is a blessing to be given the opportunity to reach people for the Kingdom of God, and I can think of no higher calling upon my life.
     But I am being forced to admit that between writing this blog, the increasing demands for deliverance, the discipling/Bible studies with individuals, our Home Church, and being involved with a committed group of Believers who are dedicated to living out the Great Commission in ALL of its aspects (and changing our community).... that something's gotta give.
     I have fought a growing sense of being stretched too thin ... and was successful for awhile.  My first assignment from the Lord was this blog, and I have enjoyed hearing from Jesus and the Holy Spirit and then sharing the journey they are taking me on.  Then God brought our Deliverance Ministry to me and Mark, and there is nothing that feeds my spirit more than to see people receive freedom from the Enemy's bondage.  And that has led to continued discipling throughout each week of those who have been blessedly set free.
     Our Home Church only meets once a month, but these people are so precious to me. When I see how far we have come together in renewing our minds; and the progress that individuals have made in determining their own theology -- and then acting on it -- both Mark and I are inspired to continue growing with this amazing group of people.  The time spent on preparation [and in fellowship] fills my spirit with hope and joy.
     And now God has called us to a new endeavor; to actually live out the Great Commission: beginning with healing the sick, as Jesus repeatedly modeled for us and commanded us to do in Matthew 28 and Mark 16.  This involves an in-depth weekly study and association with a small core group who seek to be true disciples of our Lord, in the hopes that we can change our community, and then spread the Gospel Message of the Kingdom in ever-widening spheres.
      But I can no longer disregard that all this work for the Lord is taking its toll.  And needless to say, there is a considerable amount of guilt that comes with a decision of what to curtail, and to what extent I must reduce an activity.  And it should go without saying that my time spent meeting the needs of my husband is a priority, along with wanting to help him with his business.  But how do you say "No", to the Lord?  But then my wise husband pointed out that I am always trying to meet some timeframe or deadline, and I need to ask the Lord what to do.  That's when I came across the following Scripture: (Mark 6:31) He said to them, “Come away by yourselves to a secluded place and rest a little while”—for there were many [people who were continually] coming and going, and they could not even find time to eat.  (That describes my life more than I want to admit).
     I instantly felt a burden being released ... it's okay to step back and admit that you can't do it all; that you need a period of rest so that you can still do your best and enjoy it. It doesn't mean you are failing Him.  Even Jesus needed to dial it back once in awhile so He didn't burn Himself out. If we pay close attention to the Scriptures, we can see Him going to the wilderness or up on a mountain for some quiet time with the Father and some time away from the turmoil of His life.
     So, it's okay to admit that, at the moment, I feel pulled in too many directions and my spirit is feeling undernourished.  It does the Kingdom no good if my strength is diminished, or I'm too busy to hear God's still, quiet voice.  And lately, I've been feeling too much like Martha, who was worried and upset about meeting her obligations, that she didn't take the time [like her sister, Mary] to rest at the feet of Jesus and listen to what He had to say to her.
     I realize that I have been missing those glimpses of Jesus that I used to have [and make time for].  My spirit is hungry to regain those intimate moments of rest with Him.  So I have to intentionally make the time, and like I said ... something's gotta give.  This blog was the first stepping stone in my walk with Jesus, and it is not time to leave this path. BUT, I believe it is time to re-allocate some of the deadlines associated with it to another of the tasks He has assigned to me.  I will still maintain and write for this blog, but it may only be once or twice a week -- or whenever the Holy Spirit whispers in my ear.  I simply need to remove the stress that comes with meeting self-determined deadlines.
     And, maybe, Jesus is trying to tell me that I've said enough about Deliverance, Discipling, Healing, and advancing the Kingdom... and now I need to put my time and effort into DOING IT.  Then again, wouldn't it make the devil extremely happy if I just shut up about it all?  I don't think Jesus wants that, either.  So, for now, I am going to let Him be my True Shepherd... I'm going to let Him make me lie down in green pastures, lead me beside still waters, and restore my soul.
     I know He still has things He will want me to share with you as I continue my life's journey with Him. But I will let Him name the deadline and follow His lead.  I hope you will continue to check in on this blog, and I hope you will be both surprised and pleased when I have something new to say.  Thank you for remaining loyal, for understanding, and for taking this blessed pilgrimage with me.  We aren't done, and this relationship isn't over, by far -- when Jesus reveals something new about Himself, or the Holy Spirit whispers a message from Heaven, you'll be the first to know.  God bless you, and I remain in His Power and Love!

Matthew 11:28    "Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest". 


  1. Thamk you for all you have done to enlighten me on his great love. I will check in!

    1. And thank you! Just knowing that I don't need to meet a particular day's deadline is freeing! And I am expecting the inspiration of the Holy Spirit to continue to flow.

  2. Pam, this morning in prayer, I was shown the parts of the body of Messiah. The different parts of the body as they are being pulled together are being fitted one to another and I saw you as that part that 'digests' but not from the gut but from the innermost being and I was given the word , liver. The liver is the largest detoxifying organ of the body and filters the blood, every drop of it every three minutes. What is happening is that as the different parts are waking up/coming online, they are toxic with the leaven of the world and you are filtering out the impurities/toxins. So Yes, you do need some rest as you are being worked to pull out all that leaven. He also showed me that your husband is a 'straight-shooter'(that was the word I heard exactly) and he is like the pyloric* secum valve, in that he has been placed there to prevent those things (and it is like I am seeing a backlash or backwash from 'recontaminating' and I am not sure if this is you or those being grafted in or both).
    I am hesitant to say more lest I add in my own understanding to this word. As you and Mark pray, the Spirit will reveal to you what He wants you to know.
    Love and blessings and many many grateful Thanks, Thomas
    *The word pylorus in Greek means "gatekeeper", related to "gate" (Greek: pyle) and is thus linguistically related to the word "pylon".[1]

    1. Thomas, I am SO blessed by your prophetic word. I had never seen my desire to write to "those who would hear" as a method of detoxification from the leaven of the world. Yet it has always been my desire and motivation to make people think about their theology and to rid themselves of the lies and deceptions that keep them from a healthy and living relationship with God.

      And as for your word of knowledge on my husband, "straight-shooter" is so on target that I would swear you had met him! He is a no-nonsense defender of God's Truth and is passionate about shedding God's Light on the false teachings that have infiltrated the Body of Christ. (And he takes his role as a protective husband seriously, too!)

      Thank you for sharing this vision with us, and I know the Holy Spirit will provide more answers as we both go to God in prayer. You have blessed my day, and I'm sure that I will be writing about how He expands upon the word you received in your time with Him. And I invite you to continue with your thoughts, by commenting both here {in future blogs} and on my private email (belle@salvationandsurvival.com). I always enjoy the insight and inspiration you provide. God bless you!

    2. As Paul says in 2nd Timothy 4:7. You to have fought the good fight and kept the faith.you and only you will know when you finish the course. Until then rest easy dear friend, treat easy. join Hauk

    3. Thank you, John! Just not feeling the pressure of my self-imposed deadlines ... and making the effort to set apart some personal time with the Lord has given me a new outlook. I am feeling the stirrings of renewal and am looking forward to being in the restored presence of God. I know I'm going to have lots to share with all of you, my friends in the Spirit! Thank you for your encouragement!

  3. You have been a blessing to me and so many people. Just follow the Lord’s leading to when he wants you to share. I’ve been praying for you every day since I joined your mailing list, and I must confess I haven’t quite been able to break the habit of saying, “Please bless Belle and her family” instead of Pam. But the Lord knows who I mean. :- ) Roxy

    1. Thank you, Roxy! And thank you for praying for me ... you don't know how much that means and how blessed I am to have received your message today!