I sense it in myself, and I'm beginning to see it in others. If you're like me, you've been "in prepper mode" for the last six years. That's a long time; 2,190 days to be exact. We began this journey with the threat of an economic collapse, and the fear and implications of that possibility ... we started stocking up on food and essentials, in case our money became useless and inflation skyrocketed.
We fortified ourselves for a life that lacked the luxuries of 21st century living, and taught ourselves long-forgotten skills, and worked at adopting a new attitude towards "roughing it" without all the modern conveniences. That involved time and money; both of which were not in abundant supply at our household. But we took on the burden with an eye towards survival in difficult times.
Within a year or so, we all started hearing the whisperings of "Electro-Magnetic Pulse" and "Coronal Mass Ejection". Whether these events were to be caused by a foreign enemy setting off a nuclear missile in our atmosphere, or God sending a massive burst of solar wind and magnetic fields into space, it didn't matter. We began to prepare for a world without electricity and all the chaos that it would cause. More time and money were spent figuring out how to cook our food, run generators, deal with the heat of summer and the freezing temps of winter; how it would affect people with health conditions and how we would deal with the inevitable lawlessness as society degenerated into anarchy -- it was another worry added to our already heavy load.
New concerns about government over-regulation; anxiety over lax border security, and a slow and stealthy erosion of the Constitution has kept us on our toes over the last couple of years, but we have maintained our readiness and commitment to surviving whatever this world throws at us. And I'm proud of how well we've endured the weight of the extra pressure.
We shifted our priorities, settled into our new mindsets and lifestyles, and figured out a way to shoulder all the new obligations. Yes, it has taken a toll on us, but we have managed to keep it all under control, while staying alert and vigilant. We stayed as ready as we could be, and determined not to let our guard down.
Then this last year, the weight of it all has increased dramatically. We have the double threats of pestilence and terrorism in the homeland, and must figure out how to prepare for both these perils. Added to our burden is the difficulty in seeing them coming; which necessitates a state of constant vigilance and alertness. We are just about stretched to our limits. Both our mental and physical faculties are taxed, and we suffer further stress from family and friends who refuse to see the danger we face.
To be brutally honest, we're tired of carrying the load; we struggle against hostility towards others who will selfishly expect to benefit from our years of spending time, money, and hours of training and educating ourselves. We're weary of being ridiculed, while knowing full well that we will be expected to share what we have so painstakingly collected against that very day of trouble.
And I will boldly declare that I believe Christians carry a heavier load and level of fatigue. We are worn out from trying to apply Romans 13 to our Christian walk, and we feel a greater responsibility and duty to care for those who were not as farsighted as we. Unlike unbelieving Preppers, it will be difficult for us to turn away a starving child, or to refuse someone shelter or protection if lawlessness is ruling the day. We know that we are under the scrutiny of God, and we must obey His command to love others as He has loved us.
So, I wrote this blog post today, because I know if this journey is wearing on me, then there are millions who are sharing my state of mind. If you are mentally overwhelmed, financially tapped, and physically exhausted ... you're not alone. But we must not, and cannot give up; defeat is not an option. We were chosen for this time because our Maker knew He could count on us; He knew our steps would be sturdy and our pace would be constant. He knows we will be unmovable and unchanged in our purpose, posture, or position. We can handle the load and tackle the task. We will survive and overcome because our strength and perseverance lies in the Lord. And the best part? He's right beside us, sharing the load. Yes, we've been given a lot to cope with these last six years ... but too tired to go on? Not a chance! We've just been toughened and tempered for what lies ahead ... and we're ready, willing, and able!
Hebrews 12:3 "Just think of Him Who endured from sinners such grievous opposition and bitter hostility against Himself [consider it all in comparison with your trials], so that you may not grow weary or exhausted, losing heart and relaxing and fainting in your minds."