A Modern Woman's Perspective On The Kingdom of God on Earth

August 21, 2018

God Never Loses Sight Of Us!

     God is SO good! His ways never cease to amaze me! Do you remember my testimony around last Christmas about the woman I met in the Walmart parking lot? If you've heard the story, I hope you will take the time to read it again. You can never hear about the Goodness of God too many times. Here's a quick synopsis....
     As Mark and I approached the exit of a crowded Walmart at Christmastime, there was a woman ahead of me, obviously in pain, and moving very slowly. Although we were ready to get out of the rush, I got a clear prompting from the Holy Spirit ... "You are not going to walk past this woman."  We waited for her to clear the final door, and once in the parking lot, I approached her and asked if she was having trouble walking because of knee pain.  She told us that her right knee was swollen because she'd recently had that hip replaced. She was supposed to have the left hip replaced, too, but Hurricane Harvey caused a delay, and now she is displaced, waiting for her house to be repaired so she can move back in.  I asked her if we could pray for her knee pain, and she was enthusiastic in her approval, "Yes! I would love that!"
      I laid hands on her knee, prayed and asked if the pain was gone.  She said it was better, and we said, "Then, let's go after it again!" We continued to pray, laying hands on her, and releasing the power of the Holy Spirit against the spirit of pain in her knee.  We looked up and tears were running down her face.  Mark asked her why she was crying, and if those were tears of pain or joy.  She said, "Who are you people?"  We said, "Just followers of Jesus, doing what He has asked us to do, and what we are called to do".  She replied, "I have felt so distant from God for too long.  And He has sent me several people this week to remind me that He is still present in my life".  And the tears began flowing even more steadily.
     Mark asked her why she felt God was so far away, and she replied that she was the one who had pulled away.  So we held her hands and prayed that her relationship with Jesus would be restored and she would know how much He loves her and desires to rekindle the fire that once invaded her heart.  We asked her if she had received the Baptism of the Holy Spirit, and she said she had; that she had received the gift of tongues, but had lost it. We asked if she wanted it back, and she said, "Oh, God, yes!" So Mark prayed over her, calling for more of the Holy Spirit, and she prayed along with us, but nothing happened.  We reassured her that if she wanted it, all she had to do was keep on asking for it.  It is the Father's desire to restore her to fullness.  She said, "I know this, y'all! I know this!  My daddy was a Pentecostal preacher and I should know this!"
     We asked what happened to her that she had abandoned her faith.  She struggled for an answer, finally saying that things had just happened in her life.  We asked who she needed to forgive, and the answer finally came out ... herself.  So we led her in a prayer asking Jesus to help her forgive herself, as He has forgiven her.
      That woman's name was Tracy and I have often thought about her, prayed for her, and shared her story as part of my testimony of how God can use us to reach others for His Kingdom. She has never been far from my heart. And then just this past Sunday, Mark and I were exiting that same Walmart and there she was! Only this time she wasn't just limping in pain. She was unable to walk because of  severe pain and was riding in a cart. Mark recognized her first and then she realized who we were. She was surprised that I remembered her name, and proceeded to tell us that she and her husband were still displaced from their home and she still needed the hip replacement surgery.
     I will tell you that it was evident that she is of an economic class that will probably never recover from that devastating hurricane, and will find it difficult to get established anywhere so she can qualify for that second hip replacement. But she was just as enthusiastic for prayer as when we first met her! But this time, she asked if we would pray for her husband who has been diagnosed with a thyroid condition, and his medications are not stabilizing him. She led us to their car and we laid hands on him and prayed. They were the most precious couple who just needed to know that God is still near, even though the outward signs were telling them otherwise.
     We explained that we did more than minister for physical pain, but worked with Jesus to heal emotional and spiritual pain, too. Then Mark turned to Tracy and said, "We all carry things around in a spiritual backpack; those things that we keep tucked away, hoping that no one sees them, and by keeping them out of sight, praying that we can control how they affect us. What is the one thing that weighs the heaviest in your backpack"? Tracy blinked a couple of times, and you could see something crossing her face. She stammered around, and finally Mark asked her, ""Is it a molestation as a child"? Her eyes opened wide and she just shook her head, "Yes".
     We explained that this is a recurring sin perpetrated against those who show up at our ministry table. And we emphasized that it both saddened and angered the Lord. I truly believe this is the impetus for Jesus's statement in Matthew 18:6, But if anyone abuses [scandalizes, puts a stumbling block, offends, or causes to sin] these little ones who believe in Me, it would be better for him to have a heavy boulder tied around his neck and be hurled into the deepest sea than to face the punishment he deserves!
     But we invited her and her husband to come see us and let us minister to their spiritual and physical needs/healing. And as we prayed for her to be set free from the memories of the past and her current physical infirmities, I saw Jesus [in my spirit] whispering to tell her that the fact that we ran into her a second time was proof of how important she was to Him -- that He had never taken His eyes off her and never would! It was a powerful affirmation that He had neither abandoned her nor forgotten about her. And He has the same message for each one of us!
     I don't know the end of Tracy's story, or even if she will find the way to come to us for ministry. But I do know this... we are each precious in His sight, and the words of Psalm 139 make that very clear:  Lord, You know everything there is to know about me ... It's impossible to disappear from You ... Every single moment, You are thinking of me! 
     I have a feeling that our paths are going to continue to cross with Tracy's until she is able to step into His embrace. And it would be our humble honor to be the ones He uses to bring her back home. This story isn't over!

Psalm 139:24     "See if there is any path of pain I’m walking on, and lead me back to Your glorious, everlasting ways—the path that brings me back to You".  


  1. Oh, Pam, that is so beautiful! It just brought tears to my eyes!! Thank you so much for being such an example of what we are to be doing and how we are to be living! There are so many hurting people, and we encounter them every single day! Oh, to walk as Jesus walked and to be constantly looking out for them and then just doing as you did here...stopping, reaching out, taking a chance, and reminding them in that moment how very much they are loved...and that they are not forgotten! And to offer them hope!! If only every single one of us would step out in faith, how different the world would be! I am always so greatly inspired by your obedience and your ministry! I know you always give all the glory to God and believe we all should be doing this, and I agree...but, there are so few examples of this in the world...when I hear your stories, it encourages me to go out and look for who the Lord would have me help today!

    I was picking up my son from work a few weeks ago, and there was a lady whose car was broke down. My son said she had been sitting there for several hours and no one was helping her. She couldn’t figure out how to work her cell phone to call for help. He helped her do that but then had to go back to work. I knew I was supposed to go help her. I spent the next hour with her while she was waiting for the tow truck. Her groceries were spoiling so I went in and got her some ice. Then we just talked. She began to spill out all that had happened to her in her life. How she had lost and buried her only child and countless other things that were weighing so heavily on her. She said that she felt abandoned by God...that He did NOT make all things work together for her good...that she had lost hope. After listening nd talking with her, I asked her if I could pray for her. She said she would like that. I held her hands and prayed for her, asking God to bring that joy and hope back into her heart and that she would feel Him close again to her. When we finished and I went to leave, she grabbed me and hugged me tight. And said that God had sent her an angel that day. And that she was so encouraged and felt like it was a huge hug from God and that He hadn’t forgotten her after all!!

    I just cried on the way home!! I had never done anything like that before in my life!! It was incredible! I just wanted to drive around and look for more people!!

    Anyway, your story reminded me of my story, and how exciting it is to step out in faith and be His hands and feet! I hope to be able to go even farther next time and hear more specific things about their lives and have more specific prayers. But I learned a lot just by overcoming my fears and just doing it!! Thanks for reminding me to always be on the lookout for that next person!!

    Love you!

    1. Karla,
      I am so grateful to God for bringing you into my life! And it is totally by the grace of God that I am able to do what I do. You were one of the first people He sent to Mark and me, and your story is one of the greatest ones I share with others! His love and compassion for those He calls His own is never more apparent than in the transformation of your life. You are doing exactly what I did when I got your first email ... being obedient to help others see Jesus and get free of the condemnation of the Enemy! You have no idea of the seeds you have planted in that woman's life! But God can use your obedience to water those seeds and bring her back into relationship with Him. Thank you for listening to the Holy Spirit that day! And I know exactly how you feel ... it's addictive! This is what I want to experience every day! So bless you for being true to your calling, and I look forward to many more stories that you'll be sharing. And I want to hear them all!!!