A Modern Woman's Perspective On The Kingdom of God on Earth


February 8, 2016

It's A New Season ...

     I hope you will understand what I'm about to say.  When I began writing this blog over four years ago, I never dreamed that it would be as fulfilling and as rewarding as it has been.  I felt a calling to write each day to people like me -- people just like you -- who were awakening to a new reality in our country and a new realization that we better get closer to God and know exactly what His Word was telling us.  It was time to awake from our slumber, and to awake our family and friends to what was going on in the world, in the Church, and in the spiritual realm.  In short, God was calling us to establish His kingdom in the true sense of those words, and it meant we had to rethink our positions, our purpose, and our faith.  It has been a full-time job, and at times an all-consuming task.
     And don't worry, I am not discontinuing Salvation and Survival, but I am going to begin cutting back to writing three or four times a week, rather than all seven days.  I know that this will mean I will lose the attention of some of you, but it has never been about the number of readers for me.  In fact, I believe that the Holy Spirit has worked in the lives of those who have found their way to this blog; that He led you to this site.  It has always been about listening to the Holy Spirit for me, too, and now I'm hearing that I am spreading myself too thin.
    You see, in my heart I have been driven by the desire to "seek first the Kingdom of God", and I felt that writing this blog was serving my Lord by being a clearinghouse of His ideas, and a place where others who were being drawn out of the world to be God's true remnant could come and feel a kinship with us.  I still feel that is true.  But God has shown me that I am to serve His Kingdom in other ways, too.  For instance, our Home Church group has grown spiritually and closer to God as the months and years have passed.  Yet, I feel that my contribution to this group is less than it could and should be.
     And, you all know that God has shown my husband and myself the need to study and understand spiritual healing, and that ministry has literally exploded in the last several months; the Lord has brought people to us in person and through this blog who need to experience the Power of Jesus and the Holy Spirit as They heal the deep spiritual wounds of their lives.  Yet, I often feel there is not enough time to devote to this important calling.
     Then there is my own personal time with the Lord.  My Bible study is not what it has been, nor what I would like it to be.  And I sometimes feel as if there is not enough hours in the day to give to Him what He deserves.  All of these areas of serving the Lord and His Kingdom have been my deepest desire, but I have begun to feel that I have not been at my best in any of them.
     Finally, and certainly not the least, I cannot ignore the fact that I feel I have let my husband down … not only in the area of my assistance with his business, but in our personal time together.  I have noticed that I have become obsessed with having blogs written for every single day of the week, and the time demand has sometimes limited the relaxed manner in which we used to enjoy our blessed way of life -- the lifestyle that the Lord had originally led us to, and in which He has so generously and consistently provided for us.  And I know in my spirit that this is not what the Lord wants…. and this is definitely not what I want.  Next to my salvation, my husband is the greatest blessing this side of Heaven and he would never ask me to sacrifice any part of serving the Lord.  In fact, he has been my biggest cheerleader.  Now, I need to spend more time being with him, as well as more time simply enjoying our life together.  I have come to understand the importance of my covenantal relationship with God, but I have made a covenant with my husband, too, and not only does God want me to honor that, as well, but my heart longs to do just that.  
      The Bible says For the kingdom of God is not a matter of eating and drinking but of righteousness and peace and joy in the Holy Spirit.  I have become quite aware that I was spending a lot of time pursuing the righteousness part of life, but I have begun to miss the part about peace and joy.  I firmly believe that when I have everything in balance again, that my soul, spirit and life will once again be in harmony with God's plan for my life.
     So, you will hear from me a little less often, but I promise you that God has not whispered that it's time to leave this assignment.  I am just as dedicated to expressing His voice, through my words, as ever before.  It is as simple as this: My work for the Lord has grown, and now I must run my race just a little different than before.  I hope … no, I know … you will understand.

1 Timothy 1:12       "I thank Him who has given me strength, Christ Jesus our Lord, because He judged me faithful, appointing me to His service;"

6 comments:

  1. I have often thought of you and wondered how you are able to keep up with this every single day. I always look forward to reading what you have to say. I want you to know how much I appreciate the hard work that you put into this (investigative time, introspective time, and spiritual seeking time) to give us such amazing and timely stories. I will continue to check in to see what you have to share. God bless you in all that you do!

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    1. Thank you for such kind and encouraging words. I am still fighting the sense that this is something I MUST do everyday to honor my Lord and to encourage my fellow human beings. But I am listening to the Holy Spirit tell me that it is a part of what I can do, and not to neglect the other areas in which I am to serve. And most of all, it is important to me to experience the fullness of my life and the joy that it can bring... and that's important to cling to in these worrisome times. Thank you for taking the time to reach out. It means so much!

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  2. Amen to what Kim said. You need to follow the Lord's leading, not letting the enemy try to trick you into a false sense of duty. Even if the Lord leads you to share only twice a week, the Lord and you will still be giving me much to ponder, pray about, and rejoice in. I thank the Lord he has brought you into my life.....on the computer no less! Blessings, Roxy

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    1. Thank you, Roxy! I really appreciate the understanding and the wisdom I am receiving from my fellow Sisters in Christ! I needed to hear exactly what you said … it is the false sense of duty that is robbing me of the joy in writing for the Lord! You have spoken Truth into this day, and I am grateful!

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  3. I will certainly miss you! It's good to know though that you are still going to post when you want to. I do understand where you're coming from and I believe those who read your blog daily will also understand. You've brought a lot of blessings to many, many people. God has blessed you to do so, but your ministry is also other places as well and it takes time for that too, but you should also be able to enjoy your life with your husband and the rest of your family as well. That's what helps keep us strong! I'll be continuing to look daily to see if you post. Thanks again for all of your help in my walk with Christ. Your friend,
    Lisa

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    1. Lisa, you've been here from the beginning, and represent one of the greatest blessings from writing this blog -- true friendship with fellow believers! I suspect that after awhile, most people will not miss the daily postings, and I'm hoping that when they do tune in, that what I have to say will be exactly what God wants them to hear that day. Again, thanks for all your support and encouragement, and for becoming such a good friend!

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